Painterly Happenstance

New Year, New Chapter, New Roads...

We recently welcomed our newest addition to our little home, Jamison Robert Tilton.  Weighing in at 8 lbs. and 1oz, born on the 18th of December at 12:43pm.  I can still feel the beautiful energy that filled the room at the birth center when my husband I worked together through all the labor pains.  Magical isn't a big enough word to adequately relay how amazing the experience truly was!  I wish I could bottle it up and share the love with everyone! 

 

Reflecting back on the past few months, being female, I have felt so many feels.  I believe all to be normal, of course. 

 

ELATED.  SAD.  LONELY.  OPTIMISTIC.  SURE-FOOTED.  INSECURE.  PROMINENT.  EUPHORIC.  LION-HEARTED.  STAUNCH.  WEAK.  CONQUERING.  GROWTH.  STUCK.  RESENTFUL.  GRATEFUL.  HUMBLED.  CHALLENGED.  INADEQUATE.  TENDER.  IN-LOVE.  SOLID.  LOST.  OPEN-MINDED.  ANGRY.  PURPOSEFUL.  CALLED.  READY.  HESITANT.  ALOOF.  SHARP.  DOUBTFUL.  FIRM...etc...  

 

I desire my life to be full of peace-which I know is attainable.  Pondering on that..I wonder though, if I only have experienced a streamline of peace, would I be equipped to handle what life brings me?  If I never had the chance to encounter any of the wacky emotions listed above, would I know what  to do in a tough predicament?  The  list of contradicting emotions runs on, but I am full of gratitude for each one.  It proves that I am human, and that is a good spot to be.  I'm thankful for learning of the power of Gods Love, first.  Then for learning of the power of my thoughts and the ability to process so much.  Truly, it comes down to it being MIND over MATTER and coupled with FAITH in God to handle life's messes for me.  Thankful that I'm not on this journey alone and He is equipping me to be the best momma for my little ones

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